WE MADE IT TO THE END! Hooray. 31 blog posts in 31 days. Now before I collapse in a heap at my desk, let’s talk a little about how I found it this time around:
I’m sure it won’t come as much surprise to you that I began to struggle about a week in.
I’d actually started working on posts for the first week halfway through September, so by the time we got just into October itself, I was already starting to flag.
Inspiration began to wane, writer’s block slowly crept in, and my motivation plummeted; I suppose the good thing about Blogtober is that I had no choice but to plough on through all of that and keep getting posts out.
Normally, I’d just stop completely for a few days. Sometimes that’d snowball into a week, or maybe two weeks, and occasionally even longer. (Which, obviously, led to a heavy dose of blogger’s guilt, and that in turn made me bury my head in the sand and put off blogging even more.)
I am pretty ready for a break now. I’m sure you’re well aware of that. (I’ve banged on about it enough over the past couple of weeks.)
But, thanks to Blogtober giving me a kick up the bum, I’ve actually scheduled my editorial calendar right through to the end of this year.
There are, would you believe, still a heap of surplus posts sitting in the drafts that I wanted to get out during October but couldn’t finish in time? So, some of those will be coming out soon. Plus lots of new posts too.
I’d really like to stick to a more stable schedule if I can, although I don’t want to jinx it by saying that on the Internet, so I’ll tell you nothing more specific to avoid letting you down.
As you probably guessed, I didn’t enjoy it nearly as much this time around. I first did Blogtober back in 2016, and even though it was only a couple of years ago, it seemed like such a different experience. Despite finding it stressful, I did kind of enjoy it too.
This year, it was just stressful. Really, really stressful.
Blogging, in general, has changed massively since then, with even glossier and more polished blog posts from most of us. And polished posts take a lot more time to do, especially for ardent perfectionists like me.
In a way, it made me yearn for the ‘good old days’ of blogging – basically, 2015 (for me) – where phone photos sufficed and you could write inane stuff about your day and people would still enjoy reading it. I miss those halcyon days.
So, with that perfectionism in mind, writing and editing seemed to take a lot more time this year. I felt frustrated with this tug of war in my head of needing to publish something every day but also needing it to be ‘perfect’ at the same time – something that’s pretty unachievable when you’re doing it daily. It was a frustration borne out of needing to compromise and curtail the perfectionism that’s ingrained in me.
Basically, I stress myself out over everything more than I need to. I should probably stop that.
On the plus side, I’ve learned that I can do it – I can blog every day, even though I’d really rather not.
Here are your top 10 posts of Blogtober 2018:
Excuse me while I go and lie down for a few days…
See you in just over a week’s time! (In the meantime, you can catch up with any posts you missed by clicking the banner below.)
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